Earlier this year, I am sitting next to one of my friends during a church service, and my Pastor pauses and repeatedly asks the congregation, “What do you want?? What do you really want??” Then my friend looks at me and he says, I think Pastor is asking you that question Nelly, What do you really want??😂😂😂🙈
Well, my friend was a bit frustrated that I had taken a back seat in ministry and other aspects of life.
Here’s the back story👇👇
People talk about certain years being their transformative years or specific years which greatly contributed to them being who they are today. Well for me, the past 1 year has been that year😭😂🙆♀️🙈🤦♀️😂 So many emotions😂😂
Anyway, last year, I wrote a blog post about how I was going to choose the path less travelled and that I had already foreseen few people would understand my decision…Well, taking that path was scary….but I did it anyway….and very few people understood my decision. Choosing that path led to the disintegration of numerous relationships and friendships. My only social life was literally my 2 friends and family; don’t we all love those mum calls/check-ins?😂😂 Anyway, in the midst of all that, I stepped down from positions that I wouldn’t have let go of, under any circumstance but for me, leaving them was choosing peace and growth🙈
In the midst of the chaos, I decided to call myself for a meeting with God. I asked myself, “The things that I believe today, where did I first hear them? Are they consistent with God’s Word? Do I believe these things just because they are ‘politically correct- just because they form part of the hype in the church?🤦♀️ What is the motivation behind everything I was doing? Had I lost sight of my purpose on this earth? Was I really walking in love?” It is there and then that I decided I was gonna take some time and learn from the Holy Spirit Himself. I was going to learn from the Master.
At first, many people reached out to show me how wrong I was to take that stand….then, of course, life moved on and I was left with only God in my secret place of prayer. I literally shut down the noise and persisted in prayer. Now, If you know me then you know that I am very proactive and that I hate being a positional leader so I also ended up taking a break from ministry. This was the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. My whole life has been ministry so it was very tough.
At this point, I felt like I had lost everything meaningful in my life and that there was nothing else I had to lose…which I now know was not true but that was the feeling then.
So, I prayed for increased revelation of God’s Word in that meeting with God. And SUDDENLY, through consistent study and meditation of God’s Word, my spirit opened to it! Scriptures began to run towards my spirit! Words came to me and demanded to be spoken. I received a greater level of God’s wisdom and revelation of His Word, all for His glory! Then my phronesis ( fixed mindset) completely changed through continual meditation of God’s Word…..I got to understand mysteries and received so much from the Father. I wanted to tell the world about it but then I allowed fear to suffocate my voice. Numerous times, I have typed a Status post or even a Blog post but since it would contradict the status quo, I ended up deleting it or privatizing it. I have always been very vocal so that was quite a burden.
Thank God for the Holy Spirit! He gently corrected me about that and taught me about the power of my voice. Actually, it is technically His voice because He speaks through me 😂😂😂 God told me that He was gonna use this voice to change millions of people across the world. He had told me this before but this rhema came so fresh this time round. And I received it with all my heart and entire being!
During those moments of fellowship, there is also a time I told God, “Father, I don’t even have anything to say. I feel like all I have are bread cramps.” Surprisingly, God said to me, “That is enough to change lives!” Then He said, “There is nobody and nothing that will ever defeat a man who knows who he is and who is walking in his calling.” Oh buoy! So, I am the only one who can limit the extent of my walk of faith! I am strong in God’s ability and might. There is no excuse to be silent anymore. I am competent and sufficient in Christ’s competence and sufficiency.
Oh! My life has truly been transformed by His Word! I am so grateful to my heavenly Father! Naturally, it would have never been me but hey, it is His grace!
And now, the time to be silent is over!
I am ready to shout about Christ and who He is to me from the rooftops or is it mountaintops?😂😂🔥🔥🔥🔥
So, expect me to flood your platforms with the Good News; the message of hope and the love of God!
Also, in that long silence, I began working with some wonderful people on some projects. Yesterday, I saw the first demo of a Women’s project I am doing and I know you are all gonna like it💃💃🔥🙈🙈
Hey, learn to use your voice! Nobody and nothing can successfully defeat an authentic voice! Your story is your power!
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Happy Easter!! I love you all and I am praying with you!!
#Nexcellenting
