This year began on a tough note. Last week, my leg was so swollen that the doctor had to literally force me into a sick off because I was defying it and still showing up for work. That evening, I walked barefoot from the hospital (1st floor) through the lift to the basement where the car was parked. I felt angry and frustrated. It’s like my life had come to a halt, the last few months.

It all began with losing my laptop in December. It was a wonderful morning. 2 wonderful saints were having a wedding that day and I was also going to work to do a handover before beginning my uninterrupted leave until mid January. So, I got into a matatu at Bellevue which unknown to me, was ran by a gang. Everyone in that vehicle was a thief and they were armed. I had a backpack which had 2 new jackets, not cheap jackets,😂😂🙈 my laptop, flash disk and hard drive. I was also holding my phone. That laptop contained everything; ministry-wise, work and personal stuff. In just 4 minutes, everything including the hard drive which was a back up of most of my work after campus and flash disk were stolen. I was devastated. I used to play that scene in my mind everyday to see if the Holy Spirit warned me before getting into that vehicle because I truly believe that I am protected and preserved from wicked and unreasonable men. I save most of my work online but because of some IT migration that was ongoing at work, I lost all my Outlook emails. Many documents, projects, media related to my church responsibility and personal stuff were also lost in the process. Oh, and the laptop was a Mac Book Pro LoL😂🙈🙈
My mum said she was glad I was okay and I wasn’t kidnapped or something, my best friend told me that he was grateful because he felt that a tragedy was averted and my Pastor told me that never again will that ever happen to me and that I was protected and preserved.

That was the worst experience of my life before the accident, a few months later.

So when I began the year, I was on leave until mid January with no laptop which meant more rest and more time for family which was a good thing. I was determined to start my year on a high note despite what had happened but one month later, I tried some food somewhere and before I knew it, H Pylori came knocking. That night, I couldn’t sleep. I was in pain so the following day, I was forced to go see the doctor at Aga Khan University Hospital. I am always totally persuaded that divine health is at work in me. You can imagine, I hadn’t gone to the hospital and used my Insurance card since 2017 when I joined the company. Of course, I wasn’t sure where I had placed the card all these years because I was enjoying divine health but now all of a sudden, I needed it. Since it was an emergency, an email was sent by the insurance company to Agakhan asking them to attend to me without the card and to seek approval if the amount exceeded 10,000. Initially, I thought I was very okay so 10,000 was aloot but the doctor’s recommended tests were 10K while the meds costed another 10K plus consultation which was around 2,300. So just like that, the total cost was 20,000+.

The Hpylori drugs would literally cause me to pass out so I took a 1 week leave.

I was excited to go back to work but on the second last day of my leave, I was informed that my grandma had passed on. It was so unexpected and very sad. For the next one week, I cried in cabs, matatus, at the office, in my bed, basically everywhere. My heart was sore with grief😭😭 I had prayed that the Lord would satisfy her with long life when I saw her in December. She was just 85 years. Her granary is still full, a very hardworking woman she was. Her health had also improved greatly, only to leave so suddenly. You can read my tribute to her on this blog. Anyway, I know I will meet her again. Things were moving very fast.

Again after 2 days at the office, I had to go home.

On the day of the funeral, I remember I asked my brother if I could go ahead and pick the eulogies in the village shopping center before heading to the funeral home. All I needed was to wait for him for 10 minutes and he would have dropped me there but then I took a motorbike to the shopping center. I didn’t want to delay the funeral procession. 4 minutes later, I’m talking to my sis in law on phone and before I knew it, the young man had lost control of the motorbike. I remember feeling some sharp pain on my right leg, like a burn, then fell on the ground….Then, I saw my brother’s car approaching.

There were some village women on the road who immediately came to my aid. I had gotten burnt by the motorbike’s exhaust pipe. One of the women, a middle aged lady rushed to the nearest village kiosk and bought Colgate which she applied on my leg. She didn’t even know me. I was so touched😍 Anyway, I only took mara moja (painkiller) and proceeded to the funeral home. I went to see the doctor later that evening and she attended to me mentioning that I was lucky it wasn’t a very deep burn and nothing was broken. Well, I know my angels were alert and that wasn’t luck but the painful part was the following Monday when I returned to the office. Since the wound was open, it got infected. Oh and somebody had recommended traditional medicine😂😂🤦‍♀️some branch that grows in fences in Meru so the concoction on the wound was crazy even if I had tried cleaning it regularly🙈🙈 The nurse washed the wound clean until it was fresh red. She could only apologize in my tears but she told me she had to do it. Thank God my very good friend Yomie was there with me.

Again, I went home for a week.

During this period, I tamed the pain but the dressing visits to the hospital were crazy. The doctor had recommended a long rest but after a week, I courageously went back to work. The first day, my leg was swollen a little bit but on the second day, I was bandaged almost the entire leg because of the swelling. Apparently, I was straining. Tears welled up as the doctor recommended more rest. I was tired of the cycle.

Showering was challenging. I would tie my leg with a cloth then a towel then probably another sweater on top of the towel to avoid having the water washing off the medicine in the bandage then I would shower very fast haha there is something about running water😂😂I just had to. My cousin would massage the swollen leg in the night and wash my clothes for me. I hated the immobility but I decided to take a rest. I took a mental rest and finally went back to work this week on Monday.

Oh and just right about this time, I was moved from GLM Virtual Church to another department in church. Now, I know this might be difficult to understand but ministry is very important to me. Virtual Church ministry ‘fueled’ my passion. I even took up some jobs and courses out there because of this responsibility. It had been part of my life for years. My personal dreams and ambitions were all revolving around this responsibility so it meant a lot of dreaming again. I had to go back and think about what I really wanted to do with my life and if Digital was really it. I had mixed up ministry and my personal life and I didn’t know how to adjust, at least at first. Don’t get me wrong. I love my new responsibility and I’m excited to see what we are about to do with the Extraordinary Strategist. The Holy Spirit had also informed me about the transition before it happened but I just wasn’t prepared for the aftermath. I had to focus and re-adjust a lot of things and now, I am happy It actually happened.

There’s also another personal challenge which I won’t discuss here since it involves other people but had been running from December. And even more small challenges here and there.

Honestly, I am not here to tell you I got it all figured it out, at least not yet. There are truths that I have firmly believed in for a long time and these concrete convictions, the devil has attacked me personally. At some point, I was moving with the flow. But then I realized, I needed to put up a fight. You know, I was working out my faith before so there were so many questions, as to how I got there. I would still ask how come all that happened to me but then what I decided to do is to hold on to the Holy Ghost. Not because He would/will let me go.

A Pastor friend of mine told me something that I also notice my niece and nephew do. There’s this thing a kid does sometimes. He will jump on you, then clings onto you, and when you try to put him down, he locks his legs around yours, and you can’t put him down. Then she told me, “No matter how tough it gets, cling onto the Holy Spirit that way. He is your Ever present help.” This is how I have been living. Trusting that my Father is Reliable and can be depended on. I made a choice to stick to the Word and the Holy Spirit, whether I made a mistake or not. This was not a coping mechanism but my present hour reality.

For days, I tried to fix everything and be that girl who everyone has always known but then I stopped. I decided to let my Father aka MR FIX IT handle it. I didn’t need to be anything for anybody. I didn’t need to have everything all figured out. Because I had and have my Best Friend with me and in me, that is, my Senior Partner and Extraordinary Strategist, the Holy Spirit. Last month, my friend sent me the song, Somebody Knows by Eli-J and that has been my rhema for so long. That Somebody knows my name. Somebody knows what my future holds. Somebody knows where I am currently at. Somebody knows what I dreamt about last night. Somebody knows all I put in. Somebody knows even when nobody knows. Somebody knows all that I need. Somebody knows everything about me. Imagine somebody knows. I didn’t need to say anything in His presence. Sometimes it was on my knees, lying prostrate on the carpet and/or in tears. It was when I was most vulnerable. He knew and He understood. Beloved, what manner of love is this, that I should be called his beloved daughter😍😍

Gradually, I knew the devil was not gonna give me a pass. I needed to fight back. Because the ‘not good enough’ mentality was already beginning to creep in. So I would write down the good things and exploits that I have accomplished together with my Father over the last few years then I would declare and affirm the Word of God upon my life using Scripture and Rhapsody of Realities Devotional. And as I did this, strength sprung out from within in the most heavenly way. I told myself that things had to change. I said it until I saw it with my spiritual eyes, until I had the victory note. And now, nobody can take it from me. Not circumstances, the devil or any human being. I could have been bent but I cannot be broken because I am elastic. I’m springing back forth. Actually, I have already.

See, I have made a choice to start over. I didn’t wait for anybody to give me a clean slate. I gave it to myself. And I know that this year is my year of Perfection. I am going to be the best of myself and do more in impacting my world. The grace is truly sufficient.

Some people have complained of my withdrawal or isolation or absence but not a text. I now know the value of a call or a text. My friends deserve a medal😂 Friendship doesn’t have to be all about a long line, just a few. And when it counts, they’ll show up. They will see right through the fake smiles and facade you’re trying to put up for everyone. I think the follow up trophy goes to a very wonderful saint from Global Light. It was so annoying but I needed it. I thank God for the wonderful people He has placed in my life. Thank God also for an understanding boss and employer.

Now, my leg’s dried up though it’s still bandaged and I resumed my job on Monday. I know I might be working from home from Monday because of the Coronavirus outbreak but I’m glad I’m healthy and enjoying divine health. There is a way I have gotten to know God, in the midst of all the challenges, these past few weeks! It is glorious! And oh, I am maintaining a joyful heart. The dominant thought in my mind is that the greater one lives in me and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Everything is working out for my good!! I have overcome the world by the Word! Hallelujah!🔥

2020 is a WALK OVER; my year of PERFECTION i.e. my year of Alignment, Completeness, Excellence and Fruition!

So, am I bitter or better? I am BETTER!!

I love you & I’m praying for you and with you,

Nexcellent.